O Lord, you have searched me and known me! You know when I sit down and when I rise up; you discern my thoughts from afar. You search out my path and my lying down and are acquainted with all my ways. Even before a word is on my tongue, behold, O Lord, you know it altogether. Psalm 139:1-4
If you stop and think about these verses, they are quite flabbergasting. God knows us. He knows every nook and cranny of any and everything about us. Before you said what you said to the person you talked to before you read this, God knew what you were going to say 10 million years ago. Psalm 139 is very humbling.
God knows everything about us and He still wants to be around us! He desires that we seek His face through prayer and yet we often struggle to pray. Or, we may honestly confess that we don’t desire prayer. Even if we come clean and say that we don’t like to pray or struggle to pray, God still wants to be around us. Amazing.
I’ve found these words from Paul Miller very encouraging-
“Learning to pray doesn’t offer us a less busy life; it offers us a less busy heart… A needy heart is a praying heart. Dependency is the heartbeat of prayer… Jesus wants to be with us without pretense when we come to him in prayer. Instead, we often try to be something we aren’t… Nothing exposes our selfishness and powerlessness like prayer… God also cheers when we come to him with our wobbling, unsteady prayers… The criteria for coming to Jesus is weariness. Come overwhelmed with life. Come with your wandering mind. Come messy… Don’t try to get the prayer right; just tell God where you are and what’s on your mind. That’s what little children do… The only way to come to God is by taking off any spiritual mask. The real you has to meet the real God. He is a person… Tell him where you are weary. If you don’t begin with where you are, then where you are will sneak in the back door. Your mind will wander to where you are weary… The very things we try to get rid of— our weariness, our distractedness, our messiness— are what gets us in the front door! That’s how the gospel works. That’s how prayer works… So instead of being paralyzed by who you are, begin with who you are. That’s how the gospel works. God begins with you. It’s a little scary because you’re messed up.” Excerpts from The Praying Life: Connecting with God in a Distracting World
God knows you. He knows you’re messed up. He knows that you have “issues.” And He still loves you and wants to be around you. He wants you to come messy- with your messy hair and messy life and messy family situation and all your crazy messiness. Come messy. That’s how the gospel works. That’s how prayer works. That’s how Jesus works!